Yes, I am going through with the "TEST." The scan. The drink. Am I scared? Sure.
I have been putting off having the test for years. I actually should have been motivated about 20 years ago. My dad had colon cancer. I knew what he went through. I should have been scared straight to demand the test. I watched him take chemo only to see him pass away and die a year before our oldest was born, seventeen years ago. My dad was diagnosed in 1983 with it. He was having unusual symptoms and he hadn't gone in for a regular checkup in years. He had been retired from his work only 1 year and that's when they found the cancer.
The doctors "thought" they got it all and it was contained. But he took chemo to make sure it was clear out of his system. He was clear almost 5 1/2 years being cancer free. Until one February in 1989, they found out the one cell was growing somewhere else. That cell (a malignant one) was growing in his liver. I remember the call from my mom distinctly. I still remember it to this day. He took more chemo until he could take no more.
He knew where the cell was and despite his positive attitude, Hospice came in and helped out my mom. I was a wreck. I had rosacea (stress induced skin problem) and had a couple of miscarriages. I wanted my dad to see his grandchildren.
He never did. After he died, my rosacea cleared up and in December instead of mourning his death we were celebrating new life. S was to be born in August, the very month in which her grandfather died.
You would think that I would be anxious to get tested to make sure that I didn't have any colon cancer. Well frankly, I didn't WANT to know. I didn't like the prep and heard what it was like. Ick, no way. No news was good news for me...that was my motto.
Then fast forward to January, I had pains in my belly that were AWFUL! The doctor on duty at the ER drove it home to me that I should have this test. He saw my young son and he said, "You have to do it for them. You can't be selfish."
Then it hit me. "For them," my family means the world to me. So I scheduled the test which in actuality doesn't sound bad because I will be put under. The only thing in the way is the prep.
After talking to some good friends over the Internet and at church they told me not to worry. It will be okay and that there is no taste. You just get sick of drinking liquids in that short/long of time. Once I get passed that and all the other stuff that they told me I would pass...then I will do it.
I am thinking about my family and pray that I don't end up like my dad and that I am cancer free.